19 minutes ago
My truth today
I'm pretty down, my body is extremely weak, I'm losing weight and size rapidly, I have next to no appetite and the transition from being %120 active and full of beans each day, to barely being able to walk 500 metres without being in pain has mentally taken its toll. I woke up today with a migraine, the type that makes you violently vomit for hours on end. The thing is, the surgery I specifically had done was very intense, I still have stitches inside my nose. I'm at a point where I still require pain killers, days like yesterday I had a choice to sit through the pain or, take painkillers and be nauseous, same deal with today. So today, as a result, I'm incredibly ill.
I am Trying my very hardest to stay positive, I'm thankful for the people in my life who are always there and ask me how I'm doing. It's rare nowadays to find friends that are genuinely concerned, I'm grateful for those people.
It won't be long until I get back into the swing of things, and I hope eventually the pain subsides a little more, this is the most emotionally down I've been in years, it makes me appreciate my active & healthy lifestyle, and appreciate how strong I was before this, and will be once it's over.
Just keeping it real, a ton of girls have asked me questions about my surgery, so if you're active and healthy like me and highly depend on training day to day to get those endorphins rolling, you can expect a bit of these emotions too.
On a positive note, I know better then anyone that the worse you feel the stronger you ultimately become. So I'm embracing these emotions, I'll remember these on the days I'm struggling to train hard and to keep going. No pain, no gain 😝