Today I wanted to post something a little different.... in the spirit of the holiday season... because timing is everything.
Today is a big day in our country for football, food and most importantly of course, family (however you define yours) and amid the chaos I hope everyone reading this actually takes time to count all the things in our life we have to be grateful for. It’s been a pretty intense year, to say the least and we all know someone who, or have ourselves struggled with something at some point.
That being said I’m going to share a little bit about my personal journey .... Only because part of growing my life is about sharing where I’ve been so that others who may also be struggling with something know that even when everything seems to be at its darkest... finding grace in the simplest things is what brings back the light.
This October I quietly celebrated 3 years recovered from Anorexia, October is also National Domestic Violence Awareness Month... which I am also a survivor of. I wanted to do a big campaign post in the month of October that was all like, “yay... I can do it and so can you”... but every time I went to write it out it felt like bullshit. Although, at the time I was practicing all my affirmations and writing in my gratitude journal (ok I’m a self help nerd) and TRYING to be happy... it all felt wrong. So, instead of forcing some awkward post about overcoming, I took time and decided to focus on what was holding me back. Fear, ego... pride... you know all the usual demons, but most of all it was the nagging whine that, in my head, defines success as this picture perfect life - which I have yet to achieve. For those of you out there that struggle with this, the punch line is, of course, that it DOES NOT exist. The joke is.... while you always seem to push yourself toward this ridiculous, unattainable, unsustainable version of “life”.... you miss out on the beautiful, messy, chaotic fulfilled practice called Living.
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