I came to this port with a very nervous mind, thinking about going on the boat for 30 mins. Some of you maybe questioning my nervousness. But yes, I do have phobia towards all bumpy and swinging feelings. No, it’s not sea sick. I have known about my phobia since I was a kid. It’s not limited only to boat, but also plane, car and motorbike.
Last year, since I planned to join an open trip, I tried to fight my ultimate fear by being on a boat to spread my uncle’s ash to the sea. It turned out to be 10 mins full of sweat, tension, scream, and mixed emotion. It was like hell. Instead of making my phobia better, it only convinced me even more that I couldn’t be on the boat. As I got off the boat, I directly called my friend to cancel the open trip.
Then on this Bali trip, my friends offered me to join them to Nusa Lembongan which would need 30 mins on the boat. In dilemma, but on the night before the departure, I told my friend to buy the boat tickets for us. I told her that I wouldn’t die because of it. Honestly, since that moment, I couldn’t being nervous about the boat trip on the next day.
When I arrived at the port, the fear became real. When I saw a boat on the sea, I told them that I don’t wanna join them. Trust me, I almost cancelled it. However, I finally decided to get on the boat and kept closing my eyes. I was holding @windabanjuradja
’s hand so tight. @janettography
asked me several times about my feeling. And I’m proud to say that I passed it quite well. The size of the boat, the nice weather, the breathing method, the meds I took, the support from my friends. All these things helped me through that challenge.
They also planned to go to Gili for the last 3 days of the trip. I wanna go there so much since I would go with my best friends to one of heavens on earth. But I didn’t wanna push my luck since it would need 2 hours on the boat to get there. At least, I chose to face my fear once. Will do it again. Later.
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