4 minutes ago
Just something to think about.
To put this in perspective: When I was in middle school, high school and even during the early stages of my adulthood, I absolutely detested my body and the way it was shaped. Looking in the mirror was discouraging and my self-esteem deteriorated every time I compared myself to the next person. I used to feel that being skinny would be the answer to most of my self esteem issues. My mind was poisoned by unrealistic expectations and I was fixated on what others wanted to see. Nothing creates artificial happiness like trying to please everyone except yourself. With years upon years of building, destroying and rebuilding- I've learned that self-hatred only generates and attracts darkness and episodes of negativity. My mind constantly orbited around the things I hated about myself, the things I could change but simply couldn't muster the strength to. I used to think that self-love started in front of the mirror, or was determined by the number on a scale. I don't feel I ever developed an eating disorder but my self-loathe created issues within that paralyzed my happiness. Fast forward to present day, my mind and soul have expanded in lengths that I couldn't have ever imagined. I'm proud of where I come from, who I am, and the way I'm unfolding. I've learned to appreciate myself, to love myself at every stage of this process called life. Self-love sounds so cliche nowadays, everywhere you turn they tell you to know your worth, to love yourself and every other motivational hashtag you can imagine but understand that the process of harvesting and blossoming self love requires building blocks of energy, self investment, major shifts, decision making, heartbreaks and many unforeseeable twists and turns- all things petrifying, the fear of the unknown always terrorizes the human mind. Whether it takes you months, years or decades to cultivate that REAL, rich, flavorful self love, be patient and don't lose the courage to continue walking forward. Light always seems so far away but it feels a lot better when you count your blessings instead of counting footsteps. Remember to build on your mind body and soul simultaneously-