19 days ago
Dear Mom & Dad!
I know I'm not like other kids! I know I'm not like my brother, I'm a failure, I'm not good in studies as my sister! I'm sorry I don't smile a lot the way you want me to, I'm sorry I feel depressed, anxious, & stressed sometimes, I'm sorry I disobey you! I feel guilty that I embarrass you, I feel helpless most of the time, I spent most of my time alone! I don't go out a lot! I don't talk to other kids! I don't have friends, I'm sorry that I'm not a successful child at this moment, I'm sorry for everything I do, but I respect & love you, & I want you to be happy!
I know I'm not a really great student! I know I don't get good grades! I'm sorry I'm a loser, I don't study like other kids, everyone hates me in class, call me "cunt","irrelevant","Gay" or "useless" in class, I know I don't know the answers of these questions! But I respect you, I never disobey you, & I'm nothing without you!
I know I don't have many friends! I feel so alone most of the time. People use me & throw me away! Most of you are fake! You don't care about me, or anything related to my life! I'm sorry I've a different nature, I'm sorry I've different music taste! Most of you disrespect me, & I still respect you! I know I'm a failure! I'm sorry I expect good things from you! I'm sorry I ask for help, time, & positivity! I'm sorry for everything that I've ever did, I'm sorry if any of my actions offended you! Or if you're mad at me! But I wish you good life!
I'm sorry that I complain, I'm sorry that I've negative & suicidal thoughts everyday! I'm sorry that I disobey you, I ask for things that aren't made for me, I'm negative, I lie everyday, I curse, I'm a sinner! I'm sorry for everything! You give me opportunities & I reject them! I'm a loser, I'm not strong, I pray for forgiveness! I bow down to pray & ask you to show me the right way! I'm sorry for everything! I'm nothing just a loser without your blessings!
P.s: I'm in tears writing this, everything I said just came from deep of my heart, its real & I'm going through a lot of issues! But I'm trying to built a powerful character in me! I took this photo exact 2 years ago! 🖤