Yesterday, the 14th of December marked a full year since I had my top surgery.
The 2nd of this month was my second year on T.
If someone came to me at 16 and told me, this is where you'll be at 18. I honestly wouldn't have believed them. Maybe I would have laughed?
I never thought I'd be on T before 18 let alone have my top surgery done before 25..
When I was 16, my transition felt completely out of reach.
I never thought I'd be a male model. I assumed transitioning was going to be the end of modeling for me.
But I really proved my past self wrong.
I wish I could go back and tell myself at 13, everything was going to be okay. That would have saved me a hell of depression and anxiety.
Still, I don't mind all of the heart ache nor the lessons and challenges I have had in my life.
They have made me who I am.
A very strong self assured man.
I know that at this point, I can do anything.
No challenge has killed me yet, so it won't now.
I'm so thankful for the support in my life, to everyone who has helped me along the way.
To the people who are in life now to the people I've parted ways with. You've all helped me in some way to become this person, this person that I am learning to love more every day.
To my younger self, did you ever know you'd become the type of role model you wanted in your own life?
Maybe deep down you knew you'd get here, that you had to get here somehow. Where else did your inner power come from to do all of this?
, Dr. Paul Steinwald. Thank you for a chest I can truly love and enjoy seeing in the mirror. You are by far one of the kindest and the most caring doctor I've had the privilege of meeting.
I want to help anyone who needs support, anyone who needs advice, please let me talk to you don't take on these struggles alone.
I can teach you everything I know about transitioning, so maybe your journey to yourself doesn't have to be as scary as you might think it is.
The LGTBQ+ community is full of support, you never have to face anything alone, please remember that.
And to whoever is reading this, thank you for being a part of my journey too. ♡🐐 Photography @_matkat